Showing posts with label Letting Go. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Letting Go. Show all posts

Monday, October 27, 2014

Letting go


"Not that we are sufficient in ourselves to claim anything as coming from us, but our sufficiency is from God." 2 Corinthians 3:5 (ESV)

I slammed the trunk lid down and dust from the back of my car flew everywhere. Wiping the sweat off my brow I just felt a little lighter with the bags of clothes and over abundant items I had just sorted through. It was a whole trunk load plus half of my back seat.

I've been doing a lot of cleaning lately. De-cluttering always leaves my mind a little worn about what to keep, what to toss, and what's going to a new home. The biggest wearing is the letting go.

Why do we let a nagging memories of days gone by hold us captive?

Does our de-cluttering stem from the fear of what might happen afterward? Or are we living in a pauper mentality instead of living like a princess in God's economy?

I tend to forget that God is our sufficiency in all seasons. Wouldn't that cover our treasures we cling to? I'm not just talking about teddy bears but wouldn't God's sufficiency also include opportunities to make new memories and relationships?

My mother taught me to never throw away a photo. I laugh now because everything is digital but what about those crammed photo albums we never look at that hold all those precious happy times together?

Do the items we hold tightly in significance make us more important in God's eyes?

How often do we fill our lives with old hurts of the past, holding them close and clinging to unhealthy relationships, hoping that we can fix the situation and make it all better again?  Here's a hard hitting question...are you in a job, volunteer position, prayer group, social circle, or partnership because you fear what might happen if you’re not?

Letting go and trusting God with our reputations, our jobs, our next steps, our relationships, with those who influence us is the most healthy thing we can do. It makes room for new life in areas that are stale and unfruitful. And it doesn't just help us, it helps others too.


But it's hard to do when you are insecure and won't let go of them.

There are times when you just can't be the hero for everyone. It doesn't make you right or them wrong. It's just makes for an awkward fit.  And no one needs awkward.  It's just like that old pair of jeans at the back of your closet. You know the ones. They are either too tight and you think one day you will get into them again.  Maybe they remind you of a season when you could wear them and you can't let go of the memory that you will never be that size any more.

What's worse is thinking we would want to go back to those "mom" jeans. Seriously, though we must shake the past with all it's hurts and unwanted reminders, those things that will never be the same.

I think we want them near by because those memories make us feel special or we hide behind them in fear of letting go.  We fear that we will be the only ordinary.

In looking at our unwanted items, the things that aren't a good fit, or just aren't needed, we tend to slip into letting ourselves be measured by man's idea of where our worth comes from instead of just letting go to God's yardstick.  Our worth isn’t measured by public opinion, numbers, platform, or recognition by significant people.  


I prefer the way God measures us instead of how man sizes our worth.

Jesus says we are worth dying for. That is our story and this is the only story that counts. Looking at the life of Jesus he shows us how ordinary doesn't mean less valuable. He had humble beginnings and took the worst of humanity upon his shoulders.

His one act gives us great significance in the only story that matters. It's enough to make this little princess know that when I let go of old junk hidden away, there is more room for new things He wants to do in me.

That isn't exhausting, it's exhilarating.  What's keeping you from letting go?

Monday, May 26, 2014

My fear was frozen until I let it go

Me and my flying friend, Jenny.

I was so excited to spend the girl’s weekend with her.  I had missed her since she moved miles away to another state, and it had been months since we really talked.  We wanted to make a new memory to continue our faithful friendship.  I landed on her doorstep full of giggles and grins.  We stayed up late into the night swapping stories and sharing tears.

Saturday was packed with laughter and cupcakes plus shopping at quaint corners, lattes and an adventurous zip-lining trip.  I wasn't sure about the last event but she reassured me there was no need to worry.  I had to trust her word to let go of the anxiety that secretly gripped my heart.

I’m a little afraid of heights but more afraid of letting go.

Ever had one of those girlfriends that when you haven’t talked to her months you can pick up right where you left off?  On the next day, she set out to make my fear disappear.  “You will love this.”  I wanted to be brave… for her and for me.

God spoke the moment I started to let go of my anxious questions.

On our way to the top of the course, He said, “Stay the course, hold tight.”  
When we were harnessed and tethered by our guide, “I am your Guide.”  
When my tension mounted and I sensed apprehension from the other first time zippers, “Just let go.” 

“Be strong, hold on, I am here, let go.”

The first run of the course, my dear brave friend went before me, showing me her fearless smile.  Then it was my turn to be brave.  As my feet were over the edge, I looked down, and gulped hard.  I imagined jumping off a ledge to a great fall but in reality I only had to sit back into the harness.  

I just had to lean on the harness, trust in the hold, and let go of my fear.  I flew like a bird.  

“Be strong, hold on, I am here, let go.  Trust Me, see my freedom on the fly."  I landed safely to the next platform in the course and my heart filled with assurance and exuberance as I let out a just a little scream of victory!  My fear was gone!  I trusted the harness.

We indeed made a brave memory as I replaced my fear with my trust in the harness.

So it is in our spiritual journey, we must trust God, and let His grace and love hold us.  Our Guide desires our complete trust and dependence.  We have to let go of our fears and have faith in His promises.  As we let go, we will fly on His mercy that maps our course, soaring strong and confident, trusting in our harness of Hope.

Joshua 1:9  "This is my command - be strong and courageous!  Do not be afraid or discouraged.  For the Lord your God is with you wherever you go."  

I am trusting in His hold on my heart, my hope, my future, and my today.  He holds my world in His hands.

Tuesday, May 14, 2013

Help me find it


My co-host, Carder, told me last week  that his mom's quote for his growing up years was "you never know".  I have let that settled a bit in my mind, wondering that phrase.  It speaks to the unknown, the "you-never-know-what's-going-to-happen-next" future.

Honestly that is what has really been on my mind...the future, the today hours that yesterday brought and tomorrow will bring.  One of my fervent prayers is "God, what are you up to?"  At least I know the direction to look.

There have been a lot of things that have become undone in my heart in the last month.  This processing is a good thing, because this is where my healing begins.  I have kind of stopped in my planning of things, filling in the blank spots, and trying to assume I know what God is up too in my life.  If I may be completely honest with you, I have pretty much have laid this "future + my heart" thing on God's altar and asked Him to change me. Completely.  From the inside out from my desperate prayers.

You'll never know of some of the changes that God has done, they are so personal to me but eventually...maybe I can write about them.  They go that deep.  And for the first time, I understand that I don't have to share everything here, because there are some private moments between me and God that I can store up as treasures.  This is how I am finding my writing voice.

What I do hope is that you read is a new confidence, not in my own strength but with Holy confidence in the One I am writing about.

This is not about me, it's about God's journey in me.

This is where I have had to let go of the control of what God can do with a few typed words on a white screen.  Letting go is at the basis of "you never know" when it comes to a lot of things in our daily walk with God.  The important thing to remember is to not let go of His guiding hand and the Heaven-ward faith journey towards God.  When I try to control things, I have my hands on the controlling and make no room for God.  So when I think about the "you never know" aspect, I know I have to let go of control and the unknown. There is a something about that idea, well...it just keeps me undone before God constantly.  

Dave of Sidewalk Prophets writes some words that are still echoing in my heart in this song,

"Help Me Find it"
I don't know where to go from here 
It all used to seem so clear 
I'm finding I can't do this on my own 
I don't know where to go from here 
As long as I know that You are near 
I'm done fighting 
I'm finally letting go 
I will trust in You 
You've never failed before 
I will trust in You 
(Chorus )
If there's a road I should walk 
Help me find it 
If I need to be still 
Give me peace for the moment 
Whatever Your will 
Whatever Your will 
Can You help me find it 

I'm giving You fear and You give faith 
I giving You doubt
You give me grace 
For every step I've never been alone 
Even when it hurts, You'll have Your way 
Even in the valley I will say 
With every breath 
You've never let me go 
I will wait for You 
You've never failed before 
I will wait for You 

I lift my empty hands (come fill me up again) 
Have Your way my King (I give my all to You) 
I lift my eyes again (Was blind but now I see) 
‘Cause You are all I need

Where God is taking me is a new level of trust in writing where "I'll never know".  And that's the God part in all of this confession.  I do know that I just need to continue to write about God's journey in me.  

...because "you never know" what God can do when you honor Him with actions from a fully devoted heart on an one woman's faith journey.

What is God asking you to let go of? 

Monday, May 21, 2012

Music Monday [Letting Go]

Free falling
The other day I set a Favorite Song Alert to this song...Letting Go by Stephanie Smith.  I don't want to miss this song when it comes on the radio.  It's a reminder of what God is trying to teach me, to let go and trust Him.  So far...and I've read the Book, and in trusting God....He wins everytime.  Daily I get the opportunity to let God control something. I'm pretty sure that is His plan for my life.  The Heavens know that I am pretty good botching things...so I am rather thankful that I can't control my world.  Last time I looked God is doing good at that.  


There are times that I like to think I know what I am doing...and then it's in those times that God will ask me a simple question...Do you trust me?  When you are faced with a closed door, those are hard to handle.  When I can't see the key to unlock the mystery that is Christ, he gently reminds me that I don't have to hold the key just yet.  I just need to hold on for dear life.  


White knuckles are common in my faith rollercoaster ride.  Comfort comes when I know my Master is at the controls.  In letting go it really gives me freedom to enjoy the ride he has mapped out for me.  So yes... it is funny that it feels so good to let go of those petty details that don't matter.   


"A lock without a key

No one no way was ever gonna 

get the best of me

The lines were drawn
But now I'm ready to be free"


In my surrender, God brings freedom.
In my stupidity, God brings wisdom
In my fear, God brings peace
In my loneliness, God brings His presence
In my grip, God brings comfort
In my letting go, God brings control.


Letting go for God's wisdom is a daily priority.  I don't know what I am doing, but as He captivates, He holds my big picture in His heart.  If He has the controls, I don't have to worry.  I know that I couldn't do better than His best.  That's reason enough for me to let go.  He has every part of me in His hands.  He catches me every time, He's always there where I land, even anticipating the point of impact of this free fall from the edge.  


Look out below...


P.S. Here's a video to the song.