Thursday, July 22, 2010

Roller Coaster Ride

I don't know where to start. And some days, all I can do is get out of bed and put one foot in front of the other. My burden is heavy. Still. I hear that a heavy burden is a good thing. I agree. But I don't want to be crushed by it. What is burden? The vast caverns of differences in cultures, the avalanche of feelings that I have now that I have seen a big slice of life. For you new readers....I am referring to the after effects of my recent trip to the developing country of the Dominican Republic.

Since that trip where God broke my heart for the hurting, the "poor", I have been looking to make a difference everyday. That statement sounds so generic, it makes me sick, in a way. Yes, I want to impact people. Here, there, everywhere. Doing what it takes to show God's love. It's that agape that compels me. I have honest, genuine motivations. But with this has been an avalanche of feelings, very overwhelming, if you will, as I deal with and process all the emotions that come along with this burden. In my mind it is like a giant rollercoaster of highs and lows, loop to loops, fast-paced, slow climbs, track of tears, the oceans of emotions that come with conviction, guilt, awareness, and now call to action.

I want to act on this burden. How can I not move my heart, my hands, my feet to action? But where do I start? I have sponsored a child with Mission of Mercy, because my support for Eskarlin she will have a better life, and it will make a difference in her family's life. My daily prayer is be a part of something holy.

So now what? I am starting now....starting small or large.....looking for the "poor" among us.
God guide my steps, thoughts, my actions, my words.
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