There is a void, a space of the untapped force that brings our reality face to face with a very volatile dynamic. It's the chasm between our expectations and our reality. It can fester and boil, and grow something. Disappointment.
Maybe you have some space between a current reality and an unfulfilled expectation. If so, I imagine disappointment can be found growing there. And that is hard to admit when it's God's business.
After all, we have expectations about how life is going to turn out. We have big dreams for ourselves and our children. We expect God to work out the problems that we can't. And we still do. So how do we handle the times when it doesn't look He is working fast enough? What about when we don't see Him working at all? What about those expectations that faith teaches us to grow patience in? What about those?
God what about this storm that darkens my horizon? What about how the storm of disease howls our halls? What about the countless nights crying myself to sleep because I don't see your answers? What about...?
"I am God, and you are not."
I'll admit there are times when I am over-stimulated by my Miss-Fix-It Brain. It is tested to it's tiny limits. It's in these test times, that I have to submit to God's sovereignty. Because I haven't come across any other answers that fit here. Nor can I answer questions about waiting out your dark situations either. I have to say once again, yes, we are fighting the Enemy and it's not each other. And I have to say back to God..You are God, and I am not.
"For my thoughts are not your thoughts,
neither are your ways my ways. declares the Lord.
As the heavens are higher than the earth,
so are my ways higher than your ways
and my thoughts than your thoughts." Isaiah 55:8-9
He is God, and I am not.
He soothes my ever questioning mind.