|My struggle within|
I have been asking myself "Why write"?
I say have been called by God to write, but have I? OR is this just my dream?
I fail, most times, thinking about ideas, posting ideas, writing ideas, communicating and then the worst... following through with my ideas. I have a lot of activity in the thought processes but getting things down on paper or in posts is a big challenge.
My priorities fail. I can't or don't commit time to write. I don't commit to the follow through. I fail to see results. I fail to trust God for the results. I fail. I disappoint.
I guess this is a part of the process. Examining where you need to grow. Because that is where God wants to strengthen. That is where He needs to work.
Is writing just my dream? I have doubt. I don't see results. This attitude affects my writing...I am my own worst critic.
I must not trust in my struggle but in the things unseen. The results are God's because only He can see. He sees my inner struggles too. I feel that my words don't matter .....at all. My words disappoint. I pray for more of God to show. I am committing to see more results in line with God's heart. I hope you will see the results. This is my struggle within.